sun.

All day i sat, ran after kids and ate shitty junk food in the sun. At many different locations might i add, it was exhausting. I got some exercise by chasing after my niece and nephew, some free bud and a little more trust from my sister. I’m sitting here, smoking some fine herb out of my precious bong, Floyd. He works wonders. I can barely even type I’m so fucking tired. Its worth it though, i got a tan, its pink like the lace on my night gown. The best part is my breasts are white, then my chest is hot pink, i personally like it… it has quirky photograph qualities.  But in a few days ill look golden and even more precious.

I’m in a dreamy mood, and cant snap out of it. Lately i just haven’t been acting myself. Hopefully i can solve that soon… and I’ve been listening to allot of death cab (“I live like a hermit in my own head”), some jack Johnson and lemon jelly…Delish. But were am i going? There are so many people out in the world that I’d like to know, and so many I’d like to catch up with. So much to learn, but still i never understand shit. Goals and opportunities i hate missing. God damn, i need a real vacation.

Metal Mouth.

People think im a pin cushion, just because i have two metal rods sticking from my cheeks, a ring through my lip and belly button, and some clear gauges. And its on all your minds, why would she do this? Well, why do you put on make up, shave your bush and legs every day? Its your desired appearance, but i dont give a shit how my hair looks and if i havnt worn a drop of make up in months, I like to show off with my peircing and hobo style.

I respect people who care about their body, get a massage once in a while, take some yoga classes, eat organic food. Even better if there a veggy-tare-eatin. Its weird, i was vegetarian for 5 years and all of a sudden i started eating steak and chicken. But eating meat again, showed me how much i couldn’t care less. I mean, maybe some sushi here and there, but i’ll let that slide. Vegetables, fruit and nuts make my insides feel clean, that is how id like to stay.

Theres a few things my gut is saying right now, and i really should be reacting instead of questioning everything.  I swear all the people i care about are starting to get greedier than ever, over sex, wine coolers, marijuana and there goal is to be in front of everyone else. When you have a group of people like this, they all run at once, and end up tripping over each other. Foolish fuckers.

I would write about all the patheticallyimpulsive things i did all this week, but it’s not worth it, i want to be able to learn and not make that same mistake yet again. To be short, i got drunk for the 4th, and puked red wine all over the bathroom of a person whom i didnt know. It looked like there was a mass murder in there, Quite embarrassing. A potential relationship got fucked over for that. I really don’t care about the situation anymore, im just annoyed by all the ignorant people around me lately.